Shaughna Phillips opens up
Love Island's Shaughna Phillips has opened up about her past struggle with an eating disorder.
The reality star said she fell into some really bad habits in 2016 and 2017.
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Shaughna shared her experience in a new YouTube video posted this week.
She opened the discussion by admitting she's been weighing herself every day in lockdown.
The reality star claimed she's gained weight amid the pandemic, and it appears this is something that she's really conscious of.
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"In 2016, 2017, I had a really bad relationship with food," Shaughna admitted.
"I don’t really like to call it an eating disorder mainly because I think I’m just in a bit of denial."
"Essentially, I did have an eating disorder."
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She continued, "I got into some really, really bad habits. Like terribly unhealthy."
"I would literally be happy if I could go as long as possible without eating."
"I’d feel like I’d accomplished something," the reality star remembered.
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"I got really, really, really skinny..."
"If I did eat something, I’d feel like I’m an actual failure."
"I would be weighing myself constantly and I got really, really, really skinny," Shaughna recalled.
She said she once put on a size six jumpsuit for her birthday, and was shocked to find it was too big for her.
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At this point in the video, Shaughna became quite emotional and found herself running out of breath.
A caption appears on screen, 'I very nearly had to halt filming because I almost induced a panic attack.'
The UK reality star managed to power on, and admitted, "all [her] life [she] wanted to be skinny."
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But she soon realised she had gone too far, and she, "[didn't] know how to stop it."
"I didn’t know how to fix the position I was in. It had taken over my life."
"Friends would always say to me, 'There’s a problem, you’ve got a problem', and I’d be like, 'No I haven’t, I wish. I’m so big.'"
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"I was always the big girl out of my friends."
"It was only after I got to such a low point and realised that no matter what I look like, I’d always still feel like the fat friend."
Watch the full video below:
Shaughna appeared on last year's winter series of Love Island.
Applications for the summer series are open now, but not for long!
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