Chrissy Teigen opens up in emotional essay
Chrissy Teigen has written an emotional essay for Medium, just weeks after the loss of her baby boy, Jack.
After posting the letter, she returned to social media to tell her followers, 'I'm back!'
She admitted she's missed sharing her, 'cookbook journey.'
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Chrissy said on Instagram that she wrote the piece in the hopes that it would help her, 'move on.'
However, she admitted, 'as soon as I posted it, tears flew out because it felt so....final.'
'I don’t want to ever not remember jack,' she explained.
Chrissy thanks everyone for their support
Chrissy went on to thank the doctors, her followers, friends and family for all their support.
In her essay, the social media star assured her fans that she read all their encouraging messages online.
'But I will tell you, some of the best letters started with, “You don’t have to respond to this, but…”.'
'After we first lost Jack, I found myself incredibly worried that I wasn’t able to thank everyone for their extreme kindness.'
'Many shared incredible personal experiences, some shared books and poems.'
'I wanted to thank everyone, share our story with each individual person. But I knew I was in no state to.'
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'For me, the “no need to respond” note was such a true relief.'
'I thank you for each and every one of those,' she wrote.
On Instagram Chrissy thanked the doctors, 'who tried so hard to make our third life a reality.'
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She continued, 'Thank you John for being my best friend and love of my life.'
'A lot of people think of the woman in times like this but I will never forget that john also suffered through these past months, while doing everything he could to take care of me.'
'I am surrounded, in a human therapy blanket of love.'
Chrissy talks about the hospital photos
Chrissy shared heartbreaking photos from the hospital after she and her husband John Legend lost their baby boy.
She explained why in her essay, 'I had asked my mom and John to take pictures, no matter how uncomfortable it was.'
'I explained to a very hesitant John that I needed them, and that I did NOT want to have to ever ask.'
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'He hated it. I could tell. It didn’t make sense to him at the time.'
'But I knew I needed to know of this moment forever, the same way I needed to remember us kissing at the end of the aisle, the same way I needed to remember our tears of joy after Luna and Miles.'
'And I absolutely knew I needed to share this story,' Chrissy added.
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'These photos are only for the people who need them'
Chrissy continued, 'I cannot express how little I care that you hate the photos.'
'How little I care that it’s something you wouldn’t have done.'
'I lived it, I chose to do it, and more than anything, these photos aren’t for anyone but the people who have lived this or are curious enough to wonder what something like this is like.'
'These photos are only for the people who need them. The thoughts of others do not matter to me.'
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She wrapped up her essay, 'I wrote this because I knew for me I needed to say something before I could move on from this and return back to life, so I truly thank you for allowing me to do so.'
'Jack will always be loved, explained to our kids as existing in the wind and trees and the butterflies they see.'
'Thank you so much to every single person who has had us in their thoughts or gone as far as to send us your love and stories.'
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'We are so incredibly lucky,' Chrissy concluded.
